I talked about time management in my last blog. The fact that I was learning to multi task and work and take care of kids and husband and have a social life . that I am incredibly proud of. I have learnt that I can make time for what is important to me. And if I am struggling to do something or haven't managed to do it it.. it means that somewhere in my head, it is considered as not important.
Yesterday, after a long time, I managed to get some time off. I have two work-from-home jobs and both jobs did not require my attention yesterday. My kids were off and they were just randomly hanging out - playing around not demanding my attention either except for meal times. So I was just lounging around taking it easy. Random cleaning. Random chatting with friends. Random playing with kids. I was doing a bunch of things but nothing constructive or productive.
And I felt I was wasting time. I felt that I should be doing something useful. I felt that I should have tangible results at the end of the day. If I have nothing to show then it is indeed a waste of time.
Now why should that be? Back in the day before I was working, when I was only watching kids and house and people asked me what I did all day I'd look at them thinking - dude go have kids then ask me what I do all day. Today when I do all that I used to do then, it seems like I am not doing enough.
Why does one have to do something all the time? Why cannot relax be a thing too? What did you do today? I took it easy and relaxed. Oh cool yay.
Now that should be a good conversation too